“Now my soul is deeply troubled. Should I pray, ‘Father, save me from this hour’? But this is the very reason I came! Father, bring glory to your name.” John 12:27, 28
Several years ago I went through a period of discouragement questioning if my life and ministry was making any real difference. At some point I called one of my long time mentors and friends for some direction. During the conversation I mustered enough courage to ask him if he ever felt the urge to quit ministry to which he immediately responded, “Almost every Monday!” He continued to tell me he didn’t know anyone in ministry that didn’t battle the feeling of discouragement and their effectiveness from time to time.
Even Jesus who knew the end from the beginning and knew his story would be completed in total victory, was deeply troubled. “Should I pray, ‘Father, save me from this hour’?” Had Jesus concluded his prayer here and not continued, the Father would have been swift to respond and humanity left with no hope. Jesus continued though saying it was not about what he wanted, but about what the Father wanted. Jesus rose above his deeply troubled moment and continued his task. He victoriously finished his course. Because of him leading the way and making provision for us, we too can finish effectively and victoriously.
Lord, when I am weak, troubled, and wanting to quit, may I be reminded you are my source for the completion of all you have called me to. You are leading me. Your will is my highest call, greatest privilege, and grandest adventure. Amen.